I’ve never been outright rejected or strongly curved to my face before. I’m trying to understand why I have this fear of rejection. It’s unfounded and irrational. Then later I realize I generally am attracted to guys who I am galaxies above. Like I’m Super Saiyan 3 and they’re Yamcha. This needs to change. I need to change and do better. I’m too cute not to.
It makes me sad that my family is sad for forgetting my birthday. Like between my dads family dealing with my aunt being diagnosed with cancer and my grandfathers dementia I feel like that’s infinitely more important than my birthday. I really don’t want any of their money or cards. I just want my aunt and grandfather to be okay and not feel bad.
Trying not to cry because I turn 21 tomorrow but I got mistaken for 16 today. & I don’t even have my afro because my hairdresser blowdryed my hair too straight and I look like I’m trapped in my high school emo then scene phase. I just srsly want to look like a damn adult and not feel so upset… but well at least I got my eyebrows done and they look super cute.